VOL.03
Avoidance is your habit; you should not continue the competition
I buried my head deeply, and my eyes suddenly became moist. I could only hold back my tears, constantly reminding myself in my heart.
If you are uncertain, it is better to give up early
So this is the Ma Qiuxiu in Jin Yingming's eyes! ... It turns out that I have always been seen as this way in Jin Yingming's heart, a Ma Qiuxiu who only knows how to escape when faced with problems
I clearly heard my name spoken from his lips, and I finally confirmed that he was speaking to me
Suddenly, I feel like a ridiculous character, and I just want to escape from all of this immediately! I do not want to see them together, happy; I do not want their happiness to hurt me anymore! Even if I cannot change anything, at least I can avoid it, like an ostrich finding a deserted place to bury its head, perhaps if I do not see it, it will not hurt so much!
A voice suddenly sounded behind me, and I felt my spine stiffen. Was he speaking to me? I hesitated to turn around, and indeed—
Why am I here? I am once again caught in an unattainable dream! Ma Qiuxiu, do you really think you can change everything?
Qiuqiu, Qiuqiu? Are you alright! Why does your face look so pale
"Give it up..." Jin Yingming glanced at me, interrupting my words, "If you are not sure, it is better to give up early!"
Why did he say that? I looked uncertainly at the somewhat unreal Jin Yingming in front of me
Jin Yingming
Avoidance is your habit. You should not continue the competition
Even if I participate in the "Tomorrow's Stars" competition and even manage to pass by chance, it will not change anything
His gaze was not directed at me, but rather seemed to be contemplating the ripples of the swimming pool. Was he really speaking to me? I looked around again, uncertain, and found that I was all alone!
The farewell at the airport a year ago had already said it all, yet I still clung to a glimmer of hope, thinking... thinking that everything could have a new beginning
A year cannot change anything. You are still you, Ma Qiuxiu
Ma Qiuqiu, do not cry! Crying will only make you appear weaker!
As I watched Montai disappear from view, I let out a huge sigh of relief. Senior Yue arranged for the crowd of onlookers to disperse. After the thrilling events that had just unfolded, I found myself standing by the swimming pool in a daze, unsure of what to do next
How could I be so foolish? I actually took Senior Yue's words seriously, believing that as long as I worked hard, I could become a princess and find my own happiness! But now? ... In Jin Yingming's eyes, I will always be a timid little sparrow
Joyful music echoed in my ears, and as I looked at the golden boy and jade girl before me, my vision suddenly became blurred
I... I will work hard... really..." I cautiously looked up at Jin Yingming, who still had a cold expression on his face. I took a deep breath and continued, "I... I have always regretted... regretted... since you left..."
I did not have time to raise my head to say goodbye, fearing they would see my disheveled appearance, so I hurriedly ran towards the door, disregarding the worried voice of Senior Yue behind me
Why is ... ... coming
Senior Yue's gentle voice interrupted my chaotic thoughts. I raised my head and saw Jin Yingming seemingly wanting to say something but was interrupted by Senior Yue's arrival. "Qiuqiu is here too. Montaiyi is fine now and will come over shortly— the ball is about to start, let's go together!"
Ball? Jin Yingming and Senior Yue?
No... it's nothing, Senior Yue, I have something else to attend to, I will take my leave first
Ming, so you are here...